Battling in Dark

 

Big dark fiery creature

Trying to scare me with your eyes

Can't wash away my strength

Can't blow away my nature

You are physically large

Might leave impact on many

Still I don't feel small

U can hold me, make me starve

Digging deep your claws

Making me scream, bleed

Giving me immense pain

I am not the one with flaws

You can just be selfish and cruel

I can do a lot

Be strong, determined, Believer, Thinker, Simpler

You are the ugly and brutal... I am not 

Thou can't vanish me, I'll stay

I will not stop fighting

U can hold me, not stop

You.... You don't write my fate

I make my own way

Concealed

You don’t know how sad am I,

Because I smile

Everyday….

You don’t know I want to cry

But I try hard in everyway…

Everyway that I can

To look out what’s worth

And what’s not

I look there are more meaningful things around

I try so hard sometimes

It’s not so easy I have to say,

Yeah, I’m hiding my true face,

Because that’s not what you want to see,

That’s not interesting… That cannot amaze

I’m an actor… that you can say

Because I follow a script…and life’s a play

Still the hurt holds me so tight,

I’m not down…. Giving it a tough fight…

Even though beneath the pressured world

I dream to fly…

Sometimes it’s damn frustrating

Sometimes fun to be a ride...

Quitting is easy, because losing is hard

There are always two outcomes

We forget the other one…

Not to forget that if you try…

Defeat itself can be defeated…

Winning can come…  Strive

Give it all away

I gave it all away for every little thing.....

Didn't want anything...

Similarly this world wud give me away for unselfish reason....

To unbind the knots....to forget every season....

 Leave the tangibles behind....

Nobody could then me find.....

This feeling of lonliless...

Life meaningless....

But out there would mean nothing....

 No touch no smell no fear of a thing...

No joy no sorrow no feeling...

One day I would give everything away...

Taken from the world...

Given to it back....

Wouldn't even take my body...

Pass through a portal....

Out the world... out of the black....

I don't know where I will reach...

But sure I am on my way....

Every moment I m closer....Every moment I m away.....

One day I would give it all away...

Not for anyone...

But for myself to fade....

Life.... a difficult journey

Nothing in this world lures me

Fame, love, power,

All are nothing but just fate,

Those who have it are greedy for more

Always not to have, but the want to have

Happiness is jus like orgasm

Lasts only for few moments

I m afraid sometimes

Not to be normal

Not to feel sad when you’re supposed to

Not to feel excited... u have to be told to

I m not scared to look bad, untidy, or unorganised

i m afraid of  being looked upto...

Afraid that the glance may just halt outside of me

it would  not want to penetrate beneath....

Beneath what actually lies

what actually  me is described

Can be discovered with effort and time

Coz beauty can be deceiving...

This world gives me every reason to cry...

Not to live...to end it all and die...

Makes me feel hurt... betrayed...

And then suddenly...

Gives you one reason....

One reason to breathe...

Likes it’s saying you out courtesy LIVE...

Then I laugh to myself and say

Let’s give life a chance...

Let’s see what it has to give...

All in Love

Don’t go away.... it doesn’t feel good...

It’s okay even if you don’t say a thing....

I don even want your thoughts to fade...

Don’t just leave me alone...

Coz this world is cruel....

Cruel from in and out... cruel to the core

I may be strong....

I can face a lot of troubles...

Let me feel weak.... let me feel surrendered...

Let me jus sit down...

Let me look at you...

Let me look at those comforting eyes....

Its funny, that I m so happy even with your thoughts...

I m high... even with your sight...

Only a touch and I m satisfied...

Let me feel weak about you...

It makes me feel strong... strong in love...

I have happily lost.... lost to you....to your love...

Acceptance is only for the intriguing mind...

When the heart has let u in...

Why myself should I bind...

Love is not meant to hold....

It’s meant to flow....

Lamp

Burning is my life....
Illuminating but hot inside....
the wind is trying to evade me.... Perish my existence....
But I m not done yet....


The dark is trying to cover me up...
But I vl still give light....
try as hard as u can try wind....


Ur cold and unwanted.... I am warm nd bright....
u try hard flowing smoothly....
nd I m struggling....
Almost down but not stopping....


U think I have faded away....
but hey there's still warmth left...
enough to lighten up deep darkest of depth.....
coz burning is my life....
Hot but illuminating light

Need

What I needed it didn't come.....
Unnecessary came to me in whole sum .....
I didn't need beauty or fair....
just a warm hug when I was scared....


I didn't need luxury maybe I wanted it....
But something dat I really needed was a peaceful place to sit....
u poured abundant when nothing there was to hold....
Support was forgotten in distress and I was left alone.....


When I gave nd gave everything u cribbed....
Feels like everything is in vain I feel ripped....
Blaming me dat I cud never get anything right....
But did u ever feel that atleast I tried....


U forgot I guess... U gave what u wanted to....
Forgot to give what was the actual need....
Forgot wat u were supposed to do.....
I  didn't want complicated or things from above.....
pure nd simple.... need was love......

Bravery

Bravery is not Courage...
its a form of fear....
Fear of loosing something or some one....
Considering the value of else....
More than urself...
Wonders what dis feeling can do...
coz this fear is not bad...
its not diseased with self obsession..
Bravery is the most beautiful form of fear...
its pure...unblocked by wasteful thoughts
its simple... not complicated or binded...
Its a meaningful fear which overcomes
which overcomes another ...... fear....

The Dive

Have u felt the fear of height?
Standing high above
looking below.... a fearful sight
Sometimes it just feels to turn back right away
next moment u say to urslef
u have to do it anyway...
thousands of thought of calculation & implication
its not something easy
Lack of self confidence...hesitation...
u have to overcome your own fear
come up so far.... nd ur so near
Suddenly the thoughts of ur MIND stops
hearing the inner voice say
NOW is the time...drop...
then give away ur self control
u embrace gravity
in the mid air u stroll
Feel the hurting pleasurable splash
u enter into the water
eyes closed....everythings silent
u don hear the harsh air...
Going down and den swim up...
its the best feeling....
U come out.....feel the air...feel the world..
can see.... can hear.... can feel...
Come up to the shore....
come back to reality....

Time......

Time is funny

though it runs...as it does

every moment is feels its diiferent... seperate... or apart...

sometimes u get lost... in thoughts

feel like years have passed...

and sometimes even the longest of moments

feels that long it did not last...

the beauty of it is that we can't control

stop, forward, rewind or make it fast...

u cant see it or hold it...

but still locked up in its bars

Time is beautiful... time is like a lover...

it makes u long for it

it makes u crave.....

Makes u love madly,

somtimes its painful  brutal  & hate,

it makes u feel careful, coward or silly

sometimes focused, unfearful and brave

it shows extreme sides of urself

deep burried inside u, ur qualities...

streches it to greatest length

its the thing we have to pass through

Be happy excited dull or jus cry

every moment is different

feel each feeling... give everything a try......

Rain

Like a stagnant water i felt
filled with dirt...mud like hell...
the sun was drying me up
thirsty earth absorbing me...


Loosing my existence....
looking at the sky with pain...
oh here u come... come o rain....


Fill me up with pleasure...
dont let me drain....
Fill me up with pleasure...
let me overflow...


Flow into the deep sea...
where i can run thoroughly...
Feel myself....feel me...
Feel the cool depth sometime...
or be flirty with the naughty wind...
tease the shores coming forth and back...
let me play...let the bruises heal...


o rain o rain...
together always we may be not...
but the moments with u can never be forgot


U pour life into me...
i m thirsty for more....don leave...
but the cycle of nature has to flow...
we meet and part....
have to let each oder go...


Don be sad o rain...
i form u...
and u make me full again...
we make each others existence...
erasing our selves away...
we live our life through exchange....